Counting the steps I take climbing that ‘wall’, I think total count were only 5. 5 steps, 3 years and counting. With lots of effort, courage and heartache. Hehe.But I think I will stop counting. I taken and done all 5. So what done was done.Stop doesn’t mean giving up. Its just giving time to appreciate myself and telling myself, “Owh, you’ve done enough. You’re exhausted now so rest, let it be the way it will be. Smile.” :)Right now I am at the top of the ‘wall’ waiting, but one day, there will be time I be moving forward, maybe in the same directions toward the one I’ve chasing this past 3 years, or maybe fate fare me a better destinations.I’m done.
I'm not the kind of person who actually made resolutions for new year. I mean sure I'll have this desire to be more this and less that, but overall I still am the same as I am on 1 Jan as I am on 31 Dec. So, it is also the same on this 2011/2012. I'll still wake up tomorrow morning *if I do wake up* , bathing and preparing to go to the morning lecture, then I'll listen for half an hour before I start wandering around in my mind or trying to make sure my eyes are still open. I'll still busying myself with lab and practicals, and I definitely will still be worrying about how to finished all the lecture notes. I mean I was in this phase for 1 and half year, and I'll be in this state for months more. It ain't go away or be different. Not until the pro exam. New year = New me Who am I kidding? I will be the same Loving the same boy who doesn't love me back. Doing the same mistake over and over again. And still hoping for a good year. -makemestfu- So? Will my ...
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