Little-Bitter-Sweet

She said, “no matter how hard and stressful today, i’ll go through it, as best as i could. ‘Cos i believe, at the end of the day there’ll be one person who going to ask me, how was my day and as i pour my heart out, that one person will tell me that everything is going to be okay.”  . . . I know there are so much to do, but I really waiting for u to ask me that one simple question today. I waited, and waited and waited.  Sedih. Maybe it's not that big of deal but it's always the one question I loves to hear. Cos it's like you are saying, "I care".

Seriously alisa?? Just because you don't like it? . . . grow up! freak!

Having a not-so random talk with mum. 'Not-so' cos I think a lot before telling mum the story and 'random' cos well,the topic was randomly come out ms tgh main2 dkt dapur with mum td. And to tell the truth, I never thought mum listen to it seriously, and she even gave her own pendapat. I was like "whattt..mummm....???" hahahaha . . . but you know what, I am glad I told her. :) And mum said what i feel is normal, but she said I should get over it. Cos, if it really meant to be that way, it should happen during that time and not after all this time. hm.. mum i love u so much, do u know it? hehehe

Its been 1 month and still counting. hahaha.. cheesy gilaa...agagagaga!! *bunuh diri* . . . anyway.. months tak blogging, so may things happen. bye2.

Its a Chinese new year , not a 1st-of-January-new-year. . . . Happy new year, and I decided to blog again ek?? Bye!

I think I am mentally ill. I should not be thinking like this. Aaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! Alisa, dont make the same mistakes! Puhlissss~~~

Counting the steps I take climbing that ‘wall’, I think total count were only 5. 5 steps,  3 years and counting. With lots of effort, courage and heartache. Hehe. But I think I will stop counting. I taken and done all 5. So what done was done. Stop doesn’t mean giving up. Its just giving time to appreciate myself and telling myself, “Owh, you’ve done enough. You’re exhausted now so rest, let it be the way it will be. Smile.” :) Right now I am at the top of the ‘wall’ waiting, but one day, there will be time I be moving forward, maybe in the same directions toward the one I’ve chasing this past 3 years, or maybe fate fare me a better destinations.  I’m done.