Little-Bitter-Sweet

I'm not the kind of person who actually made resolutions for new year. I mean sure I'll have this desire to be more this and less that, but overall I still am the same as I am on 1 Jan as I am on 31 Dec. So, it is also the same on this 2011/2012. I'll still wake up tomorrow morning *if I do wake up* , bathing and preparing to go to the morning lecture, then I'll listen for half an hour before I start wandering around in my mind or trying to make sure my eyes are still open. I'll still busying myself with lab and practicals, and I definitely will still be worrying about how to finished all the lecture notes. I mean I was in this phase for 1 and half year, and I'll be in this state for months more. It ain't go away or be different. Not until the pro exam. New year = New me Who am I kidding? I will be the same Loving the same boy who doesn't love me back. Doing the same mistake over and over again. And still hoping for a good year. -makemestfu- So? Will my ...

Redha itu ikhlas. Pasrah itu menyerah.

Monica: Hey. Chandler: Hey. Monica: Listen umm, I’ve been thinking, it’s not fair for me to ask you to spend all of your money on our wedding. I mean, you work, you work really hard for that. Chandler: Ehh. Monica: Eh, you work for that. Chandler: Look, I thought about it too, and I’m sorry. I think we should spend all of the money on the wedding. Monica: You do?! Chandler: Yeah, I’m putting my foot down. Yeah look, when I proposed I told you that I would do anything to make you happy, and if having the perfect wedding makes you happy then, then that’s what we’re gonna do. Monica: Oh, you’re so sweet. (They hug and kiss.) Oh, but wait, what about our, what about the future and stuff? Chandler: Eh, forget about the future and stuff! So we only have two kids, y’know? We’ll pick our favorite and that one will get to go to college. Monica: You thought about that? Chandler: Yeah. Monica: How many kids were we gonna have? Chandler: Uh, four, a boy, twin girls and another boy. ...

This running man christmas special ep is soOOOOOOooOOO daebak!! *I've been quite bored with rm this past few months, but today, waaaahhhhhh!!! *beaming** Its superpower ep. . . .

Kak Nuha itik, Abang Alang ayam, Kak Nuha cantik, Abang Alang sayang. Noor Suraya, SUUN.

I saw. I saw. I saw. Did I? Nope!! I didn't. *tsskkk* Why? Sebab saya seorang yang rabun! *sigh* Dr jarak jauh, all I see is a faceless head with gigi. Sekian! Owh and warna hitam atas kepala. and I don't look this cute with spectacles. *grrr* hehhh.

I don't update much on my facebook, but I've been blogging almost everyday. *almost ye di sini.* 1) Cos I like it here. There is not like button, or strangers commenting on the status, or people making a big deal of some kononnya "big-deal" status. I mean, sometimes, it just a lyrics or quotes that I like, yg langsung takde kena mengena with any of my situation, tp people reactions??? *Woooohhoooooooooo* 2) And I guess at here, I feel safe. It is a public blog, but not many know of it existence. And those who do, they are either friends or strangers. Since I don't put any picture or any personal link, those who doesn't know me, will remain in the dark, and those who are friends, well I don't disclose those dark and deepest secret things here. :p 3) And the main and the foremost.......................... I'm am one lazy-queen. :p This is just how I am. I mean, I can leave my profile unchange for years, I can use the same ringtone for as long as it be *...

So, Alisa? What to do? Be like sleeping beauty and snow white waiting for the prince to break the curse? like the moon waiting for the pungguk? Or be like Kagura harassing Kyo? Or like Anne who 'observe' Wentworth dr kejauhan smbil memendam rasa? Or pergi minta tolong Yoko for a wish to come true? *ini bomoh jepun* hehh *oh my good, I watch too many drama and anime and movie and read too many novel and comic* Huhh.! Ini semua bulllsssittt.! What else to do? Same as my answer to other questions people asking me. "Lisa, okey ke?" Me: "Ntah. Mls nak fikir." "Ha?" Me: "Mls nak fikir. Nnti dah jadi br fikir." So, my choice. "Mls nak fikir." Okay?? . . . Okayyy!! Ini juga sgt bulllllssiiitttt! I mean seriously Alisa the fact that your posting this post give all the clear evidence. You're still thinking about it. Kannnn??? Duhhhhhhh...! Hmm.... I guess it just that. Life goes on. And you just keep rowing the boat. end of today, 241...

I don't know. I should be happy? Or should I be sad. *sigh* I don't even understand myself right now. They said sometime ignorance is the best choice, but right now, I'm a bit hurt. Well, ok. tq.

I think I make someone freak out. And this is the end. ........................................................ .

I think I enter a dangerous zone. *rs nak nngis* . . . Okay, tak. dah nngis pun skrg.

It's a cheesy day. We make marble cheese cake, with cheese icing as a topping, and it is ugly. *okay jhtnya pnggil cake tu hodoh. Kicik hati teammate.* Yeeeeeeeeee. Tak hodoh *gurau je td* ,but still the appearance is a bit... hmmmmm.. I mean, tgh tu tenggelam okaaayyy.. See........................................................? But hye, it taste good *ini fakta org ramai*. And we won. :p Yup, we actually won. Terkejut smpai kecoh. :p And thnks to kakfina jugak yg kelentong2 sikit masa present. hehe. :p So, thanks makcik for the recipe. =) And I've a nice day with friends. So, thanks you guys. =) kak fina, syazana, aisyah, me.

Okay, I confessed! I'm in looooveeeeeeeeee......! :p . . Okeyyyyyyyy..... I watched this Thai movie, littlethingscalledlove/crazythingscalledlove . And it is wayyyyyyy cute. And the P-Shone sgt la hensem. And I'm think I'm deep crush towards him? Tettt... Toward this movie. sbb sgt comel. *angau dah sorg2 ni* :p All of us has someone who is hidden in the bottom of our hearts, when we think of him, we'll feel a little pain inside, but we still want to keep him - Na m And this is cute. To Snow White, I've taste it. No poison. =) Nota kaki: Tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow or the day after the day after tomorrow, I'll fall out of love from this movie. But while I still at it, can I have this teeny weeny bit of hope? *I'm talking crazy again*

Hari ni kononnya nak tunjuk gagah dan tabah la, plan in mind kononnya nak pergi lab dr pagi smpai ptg. At least until finish arrange the tooth. I mean, kelas tak de kan? *ye ke kelas takde Alisa?* . . 9am: Work..work..work 10.30am: Work..work.. 11.45am:Work.. *perut grumble. Lapar* 12.05pm: Wor....k...sabar..sabar... 12.30pm: Arghhhhh!!! I had enough! Penat. Lapar. Annoyed. Bye! Betul la. Bila buat arrangement tu, tak bole buat lama2. Hilang sabar je bila kerja pasang, wax, senget, cabut, wax, psang etc etc etc, tak habis2. Ngeee..(>.<)

The Ouran I loved; When they make it into live action; And my reaction was like; But today, when I watched the anime and the live action, tiba2 tergerak hati nak search the manga. I did it before but it was not completed yet then. So, imagine how happy I am *sampai dlm kelas td pun senyum sorang* :p when i saw this word; Ouran Host Club, Status: Completed Hahahaha. I was laughing like org gila. Then when I read it and found the part Haruhi confess to Tamaki and Tamaki reaction, waktu tu rs mcm nak guling2 dr hujung sana dkt weighing scale angie tu until hujung satu lagi. Haha * I was happy like that* *beaming molar to molar, ear to ear* And Hikaru even cry..Awwww... poor you Hikaru and your unrequited love. And they are so adorable. Awwwww....(>.

I guess this week most people semua dalam mood swing. Some of us refuse to get up in the morning. Some doesn't sleep all night long. Some just suddenly decide to go out to the mall on weekdays night just untuk makan. Some start cleaning the room smpai bwh katil yg penuh dgn kotak pun dikoreknya. . . And me, well I start my week without my roomate so, switch off the light at 9pm, kunci pintu, off gtalk and skype, tgk cerita, makan and buat2 pekak bila org ketuk pintu. Then this few days, pukul 10 lebih dah tido. Pukul 10 lebih baru bangun. I've been skipping class. I don't go out for dinner. *biasanya hari2 kuar mkn dinner* . And I've been termenung dpn laptop doing nothing. I found nothing can humour me, including the sitcom series and variety show that I love so much! And I just staring blankly. And I hate the internet lately.!

Hari ni buat kerja kat lab, 2 jam, satu pun tak siap. Suku je. Bila tunjuk kat technician, teettt!!! kena reject! Sekian. *tarik muncung panjang!* . . . Tiba2 rasa Donghae tu comel. =p Okey, takde kena mengena2. Bai!

You know how Monica is this obsessed-crazy-women and Chandler is this sarcastic-pathetic-guy? *well if you don't know then abaikan. ngeee.. =p* Well..........! When they are together, They are soOOoooo perfect, and I even think Chandler is wayyyy cute. *I mean when he's WITH Monica!* Its a good thing that they are friend first, that they had understand each other 'obsessiveness; and 'sarcasticness' and 'patheticness'. I guess that's why they lasted. Awwwww... they are cute. =) *beaming ear to ear*

Last post hari tu membebel kononnya nak buat mounting kat lab tapi tak de articulator. . . . . Well, jgn kata nak wat mounting, lepas tunjuk je waxing dkt technician, dy ckp potong sini potong sana tmbah sini tambah sana, ok pergi buat. Teeeetttttt!! Mounting ke hapa! *gelak pathetic kat sini* *sigh* bila la nak siap ni. waaaaaaa!!! Ngeee...

I found this funny. :p

Lecture cancel, so how bout going to the lab? Okay. White coat tak bawak. Kunci loker pun tak bawak. Technicians meeting. So. Pesan dkt Ecah to msg if my technician ada dkt lab, and then, balik bilik! Ting !*one message received* : Tech ko ada. Grabbed the white coat and locker's key. Walked to the lab. . . Lab: *after sign in, light up the burner* Doing the waxing, less than 5 minutes, siap * cos i've finished this already, just to remove some excess* , terus cr tech. Wait. wait. Where's my technician? Oh, okey, he's suddenly decided to go to the meeting. Sit down at my work table, *pouting* . Then tiba2 teringat, Kalo waxing dah siap, nak mounting kan??? Ada articulator tak Alisa? Ohhhh tak ada. So kat mana nak cr articulator? Mintak dgn En. Tan * another tech* . And where's En Tan? MEETING!! AigoooOOooooo!!!!!!!!!! So it doesn't matter my tech ada ke tak sbb yg paling penting kalo nak mounting kena ada En Tan sbb articulator pd dia. Aiyooooo... Kenapa tak ...

Spending my whole day crying in front of the computer.

I make myself vulnerable. I become hyper, I become a lil' bit sad. And it worsen. I going through things, and it make me think, I'm not that good. So maybe, I actually don't deserve. I guess I'm going the same process again.

Oppsss I did it again! And I think I make myself vunerable. So stop Alisa. Jgn hyper sgt boleh?

This week, these past few days, people keep remind me of the-one-who-should-not-be-....name? *angkat kening sebelah* and *not volodermort okay. Pinjam nickname je* Hm..to be precise, its not people around who keep reminding me but me, myself is the guilty one. *I'm so hopeless!* I mean, I just stuck in this one meaningless situation, and popped! there! inside my mind! And then the brain pulling up tricks and made up things and now I'm think I'm going to do a stupid thing. I'm not going to say a really really stupid thing but it still stupid. I need to stop myself. So shutting down my laptop and go to sleep now. Toodles~

++ I am darn selfish. Yes I know. And I hate it. ++ Angie said she feel like crying. I asked 'why'?, she answered 'cos "cns sgtttt susahh loooo". ++ CNS mmg sgt susah, and I'm supposed to read a bit *okay not a bit, there no such thing as a bit if you want to pass your exam* on respi for study group, but guess what? --> CNS (x) --> Respi (x) ++ I'm bored and I think I'm in need of a good book, which I found this thinking is ridiculous *read statement 3*. ++ I want to loss weight but I really2 do love eating. Right now I'm craving of something spicy but all I have is this sweet biscuit, and this sweet fruits, and this sweet waffle. *How irony this statement. Loss weight, while listing all the sweets in the room?* ++ Owh! I'm drinking 'limau-nipis-blended' right now and its too sweet. ++ I have a plastic of buah salak brought back from kampung, Want some? ++ I buy this box of mask sheet. I think I'll try it tonight. ++ And thi...

Some not-so-scary dreams *okay not scary at all* can make you wake up with palpitation. I have one today, and it give me a teeny-weeny bit of hope, which I don't like at all. Mimpi tu mainan syaitan Alisa.

Keep posting. keep posting. I need to forget about that. So keep posting. This is the end. Sekian.

I think some of my post is hardly understand by people. And some people said they blogging so that they can looked back at old post and reminisce the memory. . . . And the truth, when I looked back at the older post, I can't hardly remember why I post some of it like that, or the story behind that post. * Yes, I'm pelupa like that * and when you can't remember, it's equal as can't understand.

Suddenly upload Honey and Clover. This is actually totally random. Why? Because of that. * yes I'm like this*

Day 1: I never thought that I am good, but I don't think I am bad either. I am in between. But one thing I know about myself and I hate it is I am really a selfish person. And I like to pretend. Someone made me mad, I'll say I am okay. But my actions say opposite. Its okay if this was a temporary situation, (like that day) but if it a long term, and i keep bottle up things inside, one fine day, I explode and that it. I hate this. Day 2: Stress+woman's hormone+emotion+the-thing that-being-keep-inside= crying Day 3: Working together is a great thing. And the akward moment when I totally dont know how to react. Day 4: Its good and the kids are out of control. Day 5: Schedule mess up but everything turn out okay. After the 5 days: Busy!busy!busy!. A lot in minds and fell stupid. People do reference before planning Alisa not after all the things are done. Yes. You are so s...id! I'm sorry I screw things. Arghhhhhh!!!!!!! *Please be out of my mind. Just get out!!!! and Shut u...

I have updates for 5 days without fb, internet and phone line yg hidup-segan-mati-tak-mau tu. But right now, I'm so tired, I'm so stress out. I need happy pills, or at least something to calm me down.